Thursday, August 28, 2014

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Abandoned kittens, a dead puppy and Falling in Love. Period

If missing is an apt equivalent upshot of becoming extinct for a couple of months, then i am culpable of such. I missed blogging. There was nought quantity of thrill in inscribing words in the pad. The thoughts just came, shook my peripheral for seconds, and off they went to the sewer and be totally forgotten in wasteland that is my brain. The pains of writing, haha! Tell me more about it. So just please allow my poor brain to simply throw you a throwback.  :D ( I’m not making any sense right here, right? )

Had 5 lovely kittens before. I nursed  them under my bed so that father won’t notice them. And did I mention i had an atrocious allergy on fur, dust, pollen, and almost all minute organisms that are capable of infiltrating into my respiratory track? Well, you guess that right. I Had asthma, the worst case of it actually. Upon discovering those lovely, adorable, little darlings underneath my bed, Tatay instantly grabbed the box containing them and discard it amidst the ricefield which was then chest high (dwarf me) almost submerging the whole of me. Never did find them. Just a futile attempt in deem that no one will look after them. I cared for them but not as much as Tatay cared for me.

I, too, had puppies. King and Jack. I loved King the most, probably because he was so makulit always nibbling my toes and gnawing my sock after school. I was chastised from feeding, bathing even touching the puppies, but as persistent as I was ( I must have had ADHD, Tehee!), I even hushed them to sleep at night.. in my bed! Father did find out and poor King was filched on two legs, threw in an enormous strength and smashed on the wall just near me. ;( I saw him squirmed  before he grasped his last breath. (Rated SPG here) I knew then it was my fault. I cared for that puppy but not as much as Tatay cared for me. He cared for those puppies too. He played with them all the time. But he chose to lose them rather than losing me. The pains of loving.

I came to know of loving as a one way street. Just loving and giving and expecting nothing in return. To the extent of self obliteration. Imagine how those pets almost snatch this very life in me, i mean those fur. Haha! Or was I just suicidal? =))

The 5 kittens were constant reminder of loving, losing and letting go.

And a dead puppy?  Well, isn’t a romance ended tragically, catchy? Shakespeare mode on! Haha! No, seriously. We have a propensity to be cosset on so much with make believe fairy tale endings, happily ever after sort of things. The truth is, they don’t exist. The easiest, most convenient getaway from the world is the castle in Spain we build inside our cranium. The hardest is to snap out of it.

But even so, the chaos in the absence of love is tantamount to the shambles of its presence. In the end, we all choose to be brave and bold...make a fool of ourselves and just FALL IN LOVE. And that’s just about it. Period. 


Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Nyctophilia

(Thank you God for Mr. Google, he has everything!)

I love the light just as much as I love darkness. It gives me the feeling of relief. That another day has been ripped off completely from my life, leaving it somewhere in the past where I can no longer feel its presence.

Good night dear world.



" What if we get to become stars? "


What if once upon a time there were no stars in the sky at all? What if the stars arent what we think? What if the light from afar doesnt come from the rays of distant sun but from our wings as we turn into angels?

Why would so many things conspire to save one little girls life? What if we are all unique and what if the universe loves us all equally and it bends over backwards to help us all and we are just lucky enough once in awhile to see it?

What if we are part of a greater pattern that we are incapable of knowing? What if when we are done with our purpose we get to rise up and be with those we love? What if we get to become stars?

-Beverly Penn ( WINTER'S TALE )

And in that case, I would like a pair of shiny purple wings and a very slight talent in doodling, pretty please?! 


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