Moodswings

I am in the mood that If I were under water, I would scarcely kick to come to the top.  

:(

Time Out

Dear Fate,

You know when the captain of the team says time out? he is in dire need of time to prepare a game plan for the next round. 

And you wonder why you always win? 

Cheater!     

UNHAPPY

I awoke each morning with the desire to do right, to feel right, to be a good person, to be (as simple as it sounded and as impossible as it actually was)  HAPPY. But during the course of each day my heart would descend from my chest into my foot.  Sometimes I was overcome by the feeling that nothing was right, or nothing was right for me, or nothing was ever right in the first place. I was fulfilled -  alone in the magnitude of my grief, alone in my aimless guilt, alone even in my loneliness. I am not sad. I can repeat that to myself over and over. As if one day I might convince myself . Or fool myself. Or convince others. ( the only thing worse than being sad is for others to know that you are sad ). I would fall asleep with my heart at the foot of my bed, and each morning would wake with it again in the cupboard of my rib cage, having become a little heavier, a little weaker, but still pumping.

I wonder why do people have to be this lonely? What's the point of it all? Millions of people in this world, all of them yearning, looking to others to satisfy them, yet isolating themselves. Why? Was the earth put here just to nourish human loneliness?-

Or my life just had unlimited potential for happiness? 

Hey, I just want to clear my head. 

wink!

EVERYDAY

Everyday, Lord I learn to stand upon your word. 
And I pray that I might come to know you more. 
That you would guide me in every single step I take.
That EVERYDAY I can be your light into the world. 

space invasion launch

Steamy weather?

Drained pockets?

Disrupted connection?

Boggled mind?

or just plain Bored?

Whatever it is, please stop invading my own personal space.

:(

Tadhana cover by Stef

Music either soothes the soul, stirs the spirit or pierces the heart. But how do you define a music when upon hearing you suddenly caught up juggling those three emotions, like getting all mushy, feverish, and ecstatic at the same time?



Everyone, meet Stef !

International WE-VAIN Day!

What really inpires me is the way you manage your personal and professional life so well!

Hats off to the women of the world!

WE grow up and become women. But as WE age, WE grow young.

Happiness overload.

Work has been a battlefield since the year started. Half of the stress I deal with everyday came pretty much from my bread and butter. So it goes without saying that distressing is a bit way off mark as to gradually change my course, I know I have to drop the cause of my stress. The downside is, I can't. There is so much more struggles to contain and wounds to patch and pains to nurse other than surmounting the stress my work has bestowed upon me. But there ain't no room to complain.

On the other hand, its been raining blessings on my other part of the world. Popping out like zits on an oily face. >:) I still haven't fully grasp these mighty gifts from the heavens when another unexpected manna is about to be delivered again.( Yeah baby, another baby!) I have to be somewhere near that world to at least experience the blessings and to fill my cup almost half empty now.

If happiness is a choice then I chose to stick with it even for a day on the first of march. I glued my butt to happiness, not because I deserve it but because ITS MY BIRTHDAY!. :)

Happiness loading......

Purple cake from Nanay!

Happiness overload.

Psalm 23 of a coffeeholic.

Caffeine is my shepherd; I shall not doze.

It maketh me to wake in green pastures:

It leadeth me beyond the sleeping masses.

It restoreth my buzz:

It leadeth me in the paths of consciousness for its name's sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of addiction,

I will fear no Equal™:

For thou art with me; thy cream and thy sugar they comfort me.

Thou preparest a carafe before me in the presence of The Starbucks:

Thou anointest my day with pep; my mug runneth over.

Surely richness and taste shall follow me all the days of my life:

And I will dwell in the House of Mochas forever.

Hybernation period is over.

The way sadness works is one of the strange riddles of the world. If you are stricken with a great sadness, you may feel as if you have been set aflame, not only because of the enormous pain, but also because your sadness may spread over your life, like smoke from an enormous fire. You might find it difficult to see anything but your own sadness, the way smoke can cover a landscape so that all anyone can see is black. You may find that if someone pours water all over you, you are damp and distracted, but not cured of your sadness, the way a fire department can douse a fire but never recover what has been burnt down. But a morning kicked in with great surprise and the pain that was long been there vanished in an instant.

Dahil kahit may 4 na, ikaw pa rin ang da best. At kahit 3 ka, ikaw pa rin ang number 1.